Living Purposefully


Living Purposefully

Hey guys, I don't think I've told you how much I appreciate all your love and support through out the years. Its crazy to think Ive been sharing our life with you all a little over 2 years now. So much has happened. I really am thankful for this community. When I have a question or need advice you all flood my inbox with messages, and when those hard days seem like they are more common than they should be, you all pour so much encouragement into my life. For every negative comment I get there are thousands of you who rally around me. So thank you. Motherhood aint easy. Especially when you don't have friends around you who are in that stage of life you are in. We all need that one mom best friend who you can go to each others house and not feel like you have to entertain, or clean for. And you don't have to apologize constantly for your childs' crazy behavior. 


Speaking of cleaning.... ;) It seems like there isn't a reason to clean anymore. I do the dishes and minutes later its time for Adaline to eat, which just means there are going to be dishes in the sink and food on the floor. I read a meme that said. " Why do i clean, while we still live here?" Haha soon true.. Minutes later its just going to be a mess! And no matter how many times i sweep Adaline seems to find the tiniest speck of dirt on the floor, or fuz, and puts it in her mouth. So I've given up on sweeping. Instead our new little pet "bObi" cleans for me. And entertains Adaline. She loves her new pet. She chases her all around the house and literally pushes her buttons. But it keeps her entertained while I nurse, or eat or binge watch Friends. Which is also why I call our new pet Monica (Geller- Bing). She's soooo thorough.  You can shop her here . She has seriously made it so much easier around here. I actually feel like the house is getting a little cleaner each and every day! Maybe one day ill get around to mopping the floors..... maybe. 

But mamas...if you're still reading this, I know this is easier said than done, and I need to work on this too, but lets try not to get caught up in the lies that our house needs to look perfect and the toys need to be picked up. The days maybe long, and the nights even longer, but the years are so short. And one day we will wish we had toys to pick up, and baby bath toys to step on in the shower. One day these littles will be grown and on their own, and we will have all the time in the world to clean and organize. So get yourself the best kind of pet, the bObi ;) let it do the cleaning for you, and spend time with your kiddos outside.

My mom challenged me to spend one day with my phone shut off and in a drawer. At first I legit rolled my eyes and thought thats impossible. I have way too much Im trying to do that requires my phone. But you know what... it can wait. I need a day away from the world and the feeling of urgency to answer every text and every message. Mondays and Thursdays are my off days, where theres no therapies or appointments, so I'm gonna choose Thursdays to turn my phone off for 24 hours. I Challenge you to do the same thing! Or something similar..maybe no TV or no instagram. One day a week where you can unplug. If you try it out let me know how it goes in the comments! 

This post is sponsored, but all thoughts and opinions are my own. As always, I don't share products with you that i dont love and use myself. 


Playroom by Day, Living Room by Night


Playroom by Day, Living Room by Night

Alright you guys, I get the most questions about Adalines therapy room, you can see her playroom on this blog here! But a lot of you say you don't have the space for a thearpy room, which I totally understand because we live in a 600 sq ft casita. Adalines therapy room is in my parents house, and my mom used to run a preschool so she had a ton of things to start with. So I decided to start blog series sharing products with you that are for developmental growth, but also "aesthetically" pleasing to have up in your living room, or whatever space you have available.
If you are like me the bright colored toys always make me anxious, and i feel the they just add to the mess. So Im really excited to share these products with you. 



So our home is pretty monochromatic. Mainly white, grey, and wood with accents of bohemian/macrame. Our new couch is from Burrow. Its very durable, comfortable, and was really easy to put together. And the awesome part of these couches is that you can add on pieces to make it longer once we have more space. A lot of you ask me about our floors and they are acacia wood. 

Little Nomad

Little Nomad


This Play Mat is the prettiest playmate you'll ever see. Its from Little Nomad. They are having a sale right now, so grab one quick! They come in a variety of sizes and colors/prints. And you can piece them together however you like to make any design. These playmats are very helpful especially if you have hard floors like we do. When Adaline was learning to walk she would fall a lot, and hit her head. Now that we have this play mat, I know we can spare claramae from the same bumps and bruises. Especially when she starts to sit up on her own. And it replaces a really pretty area rug, and is easy to clean! I HIGHLY recommend this one! The activity mat you see in the picture with the mobile above is by far the prettiest activity mat I've ever seen. Its by Bubs&Windy


Now activity mats are important for any child for quite a while. The first few months while they can't sit up they still need to get some "therapy" in. The hanging mobile helps them reach upwards to try to grab the toys, and you can also work on turning their head with however you lay them on the mat. Adaline had torticollis so we would have to lay her facing the side where the toys were NOT, so that she would have to pick up her head (if she was on her tummy) or turn her head (if she was on her back) to see them. Eventually when she was sitting up we would still have her reach upward to one side so that she was working on grasping toys with both hands. And this activity mat is really big so your little ones will still play with it when they are older. Adaline plays with it now. So for the price, you'll get great use out of it. And its not this bright ugly color thats going to make you fee like you have to constantly clean up toys. 

Okay, I seriously get asked about this item DAILY! And Ive answered it so many times. Probably like 3 times on my blog, and I'm not getting paid for these shout out haha. So that should tell you how much I LOVE this toy/chair. This is an activity chair from Land Of Nod. They have so many different styles now. But it is AMAZING for helping your littles learn to sit unassisted. We were never allowed to use the bumpo because it creates and artificial seat and does the work for you so your kids don't need to learn how to hold them selves up properly. If you don't have a child with low muscle tone, that its not that big of a deal. But for kids like Adaline, their bodies and muscles have to work twice as hard to manage a skill, and if the toy does the work for them it can prevent them for learning how to do it properly on their own. So we weren't able to use one of those play rockers where they sit it and push them selves around to learn how to walk. 


Last but not least, This swing is by Adelisa&Co. You can shop this swing here. Their website is down right now, but look at their instagram here. They also make the most adorable leather boots for babies. I can't wait to get Adaline a pair now that she is walking!. If you have seen my parents play room for adaline they also have a swing in their house, but their swing is like a park swing for kids. To mount these swing in the ceiling is probably the hardest part. You have to find a strong beam in the ceiling to hang screw the hook into. So ours is not in a prime spot because we have limited space, but it gets the job done for the deep pressure and sensory time she needs. When Adaline gets worked up, she needs a way to put out her built up energy and swinging is GREAT for this and also just for vestibular development and sensory therapy. With flu season being crazy this year, I don't take Adaline to parks because we can risk her getting sick. I also have a macrame hammock i want to hang outside on the front porch too now that the weather is nice. 


I hope this was helpful, and as always, though some of these products are sponsored, i don't share anything with you that I don't personally love for really recommend. 


Hannah Lorain


Fighting Flu Season with Nosiboo


Fighting Flu Season with Nosiboo

This years Flu Season has been the worst! Its been lasting way too long, and its taken too many lives in the down syndrome community. Our little ones with the extra chromosome tend to have a compromised immune system, so its a lot more scary for us and them when they get sick. And because of their facial anatomy, their smaller nasal passages make it a lot harder for them to breathe when they are congested. During the summer, Adaline got sick with croup and then was congested for months. She would throw up because the post nasal drip. She couldn't sleep because she couldn't breathe. We had to constantly aspirate her nose and those dumb bulbs were the worst. She would just scream and kick and cry. It probably looked like we were torturing her. 


Brian would have to hold her arms and legs down while I would have to keep her head still and try to get all the gunk out super quick. It broke my mama heart each time we had to do this. She seemed so scared and sad/mad at us. 

When I saw Nosiboo on instagram I knew right away I had to have this amazing machine. Everyone was raving about it, and how quickly it got all the boogers out of their LO's noses. So I was so excited to try it out. 

Im not going to lie, Adaline still had a hard time getting her nose aspirated with the Nosiboo. But it was more of the fact that she was mad that something was in her nose, rather than being in pain or scared. But it helped that we no longer had to hold her down for so long to get everything out. A quick few seconds and her nasal passages were clear. 

There is a clear part of the machine that holds all the nastiness. And let me tell you, it was absolutely disgusting to see all of the snot that had been stuck in there. I swear after maybe 3-5 days of using the Nosiboo, Adaline hasn't been congested since. And that is a MIRACLE, given the California air, her genetic makeup, and the sinus issues she inherited from both sides of her family. For a while I thought we were going to have some sort of surgery to help he breathe and sleep better, but it hasn't been an issue since. You all need a Nosiboo in your life. 

I recommend introducing it to your child as a fun toy, while its unplugged of course. Have them hold it to your nose, and switch off. Or even having them practice on their baby doll like Adaline is doing here. This helped Adaline know it wasn't scary and when it came time to turn it on, i would have her hold the bulb part to my nose so she could feel and hear it and see that it wasn't hurting me. She became way more calm when it was her turn, because she wasn't stressed out and neither was I. Now if only they cold come up with a way to have an on the go Nosiboo ;) 

If you're looking for other holistic alternative ways to help clear up some cold symptoms or congestion, these are what have worked for us. 

  • Essential Oils. I swear by them now. There are a few different companies I like to use. YoungLiving or Doterra. Specifically breathe by Doterra works great for congestion. But there are a lot of other mixtures that work wonderful too. If you're looking to buy any essential oils, let me know and I'll hook you up with someone from either YL or Doterra. 
  • Boiling Bay Leaves- Once you've brought your water to a boil add some bay leaves and let them boil. Holding your baby against your chest and safely away from the stove waft the steam from the pot towards you both, breathing it in. I swear this works!. I also ended up using the water in the pot after it cooled in our humidifier and running that during the night. 
  • If you don't have a humidifier, try sitting in the bathroom and letting the steam from the shower fill the bathroom. This should help break up the congestion in your little ones chest. Even adding essential oils to the shower will help. 
  • Now I haven't tried this one, but I  read about it and my friend tried it. If your child is sick, cut a 1.5 inch round of a potato and stick it in the bottom of your babies socks while they sleep. The potato will pull out the toxins in their bodies from their feet. This should help with the congestion. My friend said it worked, id be interested to hear if it works for any of you. Im going to try this next time one of the girls are congested. 
  • We have also used a saline nasal spray to help break up the mucus so it is easier to bring out. And a light pressured facial massage will also help to break up the congestion. But make sure you or your child is staying hydrated after doing a facial massage. 

And for those of you who follow me on instagram, you have seen this new piece of furniture we welcomed into our family. Its from Burrow. This couch was so fun to put together, and it was easy. It also charges your phone (or anything with a usb outlet), is stain proof, and so comfy! You can add on pieces as your family grows too. I can't wait to add on another seat. Check them out here

As always, though some of these blogs are sponsored, all opinions and words are my own. I don't share products with you that I don't believe in or stand by. If Im not comfortable using them on my littles, I wouldn't suggest you do. 


New Born Must Haves - A Baby Bee Box


New Born Must Haves - A Baby Bee Box

Alright mamas, I am REALLY REALLY excited about this. A few months back Adaline and I were asked to do some modeling for Burt's Bees Baby new spring line of baby Pjs. Heres a sneak peak from the shoot and some of their outfits. You are seeing it here first! This Photo Shoot was soo fun! Adaline was loving being in front of the camera. Im really thinking about getting her back in contact with an agent and doing some shoots. Ill hold these photos so close to my heart because one baby girl is in my arms, and one is in my belly. What's really cool is that my mom used Burts Bees Baby on all of us kids. I had such sensitive skin and would break out to everything and she only trusted Burts Bees. And now we've come full circle. PS. This house in Joshua Tree was AMAZING!! Im totally going to find it on AirBNB and try to link it here or in my insta stories. 

We got to keep all the new spring pj and they are freaking adorable. Keep an eye out for when they launch and follow them on IG. &&&& now... Burts Bees Baby is launching their first baby box. And its perfect for any mom. Its completely gender neutral and contains everything you'll need. Check out their website here. They cover everything you need from Mealtime to bed time. Here is everything thats included in the box! It was like a Mary Poppins box. It was never ending! 

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I can't wait to use the bibs when Claramae starts eating solids. The bibs are so cool. They look like shirts the way they are designed and just slip over their head. My favorite thing about this box is that its so gender neutral. Dont get me wrong, I love my pinks but If you're one of those patient parents who can wait to find out the gender of your baby then this is perfect. Its like the best baby shower gift. I can't wait to gift it at the next baby shower I go to. 

On top of being completely safe to use on your little love ones, you can rest easy trusting these products and also know you are helping out families in need. Because with the purchase of each box, one is donated to a family through Save The Children. 


Being a mom is hard work. Knowing which products to trust and use on your precious babes shouldn't be hard. And with this baby bee box you've got everything you need. And you can rest easy and just snuggle your babies. We have enough to worry about. There are so many things out there its hard to know what to use or what to trust. These products are what work for us. And while this blog was sponsored, all words and thoughts are my own and I don't share products with you that I won't use myself or on my babies. I even got the soap in Claramae's eye when I was bathing her and while I felt terrible, she didn't even know what happened. No pain, no tears, no infection. Just mom guilt. 

Go get your hands on one of these boxes for your self or your mama friend whose currently expecting.  



Claramae Rose: A Birth Story

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Claramae Rose: A Birth Story

Thursday November 30th, 2017 at 12:06 PM


While the delivery was quick, the labor was long. A lot of you might remember I was in the hospital for a week back in October for preterm labor. They put me on magnesium and shortly after my contractions stopped and my cervix wasn't progressing. SO I was very surprised I made it to full term. You also might remember back in May I was admitted in the ER while on vacation in Indiana for what the doctors thought was a PE (pulmonary embolism). After tests upon tests they were still convinced, but I needed to have a CT to confirm, which would expose the baby to radiation which could cause cells to mutate. I had just gotten our genetic tests back and was given the "all clear", so exposing her to something was very hard for me to do. We did the CT but the results came back negative for a PE. A Few weeks later I was diagnosed with Prental Depression ( or late/onset PPD from my pregnancy and birth with Adaline). They had me on antidepressants for a few weeks, which helped but I found something holistic that helped more so I got off the antidepressants. All of these things could have caused some risks to the baby, but we are happy to announce that Claramae is perfectly healthy. Gods hand were on her through out this whole pregnancy. 

On November 26 I actually went into the hospital in the morning because I thought I was in labor. I have never felt contractions before, (not during labor with adaline) So because these were semi painful and close together I for sure thought things were happening. I was checked into labor and delivery and examined. To my surprise my cervix was dilated to a 3 at the bottom, but the top was only a 1. So they sent me home. Brian and I walked 4 miles, I bounced on a ball, ate spicy food, consummated, nothing was happening. The next few days my mom and I spent out on the town, pounding the pavement. Walking, shopping, eating. I wanted to get through Wednesday so Adaline could go to PT. I was hoping she would start walking after the last one we had before labor. She is so close. So November 29th, after PT, we went to the mall and walked for hours. around 8 pm, the contractions were much stronger and very close. Sometimes a minute apart, sometimes 3 minutes apart. And then they would stop for 20 min, and pick back up. But again because I didn't feel contractions with Adaline until I was 7cm, I was worried I was going to start crowning.

So we headed to the hospital. 10 PM I checked into L&D. They checked me and I was still only a 3, so they checked me again in 2 hours and I was a 5. From there the contractions were getting much stronger and closer. I chose to have the epidural, which took about another hour or so to get after they moved me into a delivery room and got me hooked up to everything. It took 2 nurses and 5 tries to get an IV in me, and even then the IV infiltrated and filled my arm with the fluids rather than my vein. So my whole left arm, from my fingers to my elbow was one big swollen ballon. Even to the touch. It literally felt like it was going to burst. Then came time for the Epidrual. This was about 2am. The anesthesiologist couldn't get the needle in my first vertebra so he had to do it again in a different one. All the while Im having contractions and not able to move, or you know you could be paralyzed. He finally got it in, and then 30 min later i was starting to feel better. 


My body reacts very weird to anesthesia. I instantly feel loopy and completely checked out. Which in the moment feels great. I can sleep and nothing or no one bothers me. But once I got the epidural I stopped progressing. I was a 7 cm for 8 hours!! So eventually they gave me pitocin to speed things along. Well... Eventually the pitocin overrode the epidural and I could feel everything in my right side. And apparently pitocin contractions are worse than normal contractions? Because I wanted to kill someone. It took another hour, and rotating from side to side to get the epidural to take over in my right side. Once everything was numb again I was good to go, still only 7 cm, so I decided to FaceTime my Bestie who was about to head to the hospital to be induced to have her first baby. (Claramae's future husband). We face-timed for about 20 minutes and then all the sudden I could feel everything again. The nurse came in and checked my cervix. My water had broken and I was a 9. It took about another 30 min for the epidural to kick in ( Kaiser gives you a button to push to administer more, but it locks out after each dose for 15 min). So once I was numb again, I fell asleep for the remaining time and then at about 12 the nurse came in and told me it was time to start pushing. She said it could take an hour or more so she wanted me to give a practice push. So I did, and she yelled at me to stop. She called the doctor in and from the time the doctor scrubbed in, and I pushed (1 Big push and 2 small pushes) Claramae took her first breath at 12:06. Brian cried, I cried. And Oceans by Hillsong was playing while the doctor sang along. It was beautiful. 


There honestly aren't words to describe the moment you meet that person you've dreamt about, and wondered about for so long. I guess its similar to the ground opening up from an earthquake. This strong burst of emotion floods through your body, cracking open the strongest part of your self. Your heart. Exposing all sides of you. Vulnerability, love, joy, fear. You're completely exposed. Fragile, yet still strong. Your heart will never be the same. Another being holds a piece of you. Just walking about this earth. Another being is capable of breaking your heart. The worry for every day after their first breath. The wonder of whats to come. Soooo many emotions. You are solely responsible for another life. And that is frighteningly beautiful. changes you. 

Family trickled in after we had our hour of skin to skin. Claramae latched right away. Eats like a champ, sleeps like a champ. The moment Brian brought Adaline in the room, my heart was completely full. I worried Adaline would be angry and jealous. But she locked on to her sister the moment she saw her. Saying and signing baby, smothering her in kisses. Pointing to her eyes, nose, lips. And when family came in, she was too protective of her sister. Theres one picture where my mom is holding her and Adaline is reaching out to grab her sister. And then the following picture she's next to her again with this look of love all over her face. Their bond is something I can't wait to watch grow. 




The next day was supposed to be discharge day. They had prepped me for discharge. Filled out all the paper work, met with Social workers for her birth certificate and SS. But... i was unable to pee. Because of the epidural they measure your pee and I was completely unable to pee. They gave me all day and night, but I was still unable to pee. So the only options was to be sent home with a catheter and to come back in 4 days to have it removed. First off, let me tell you... having a bag of piss attached to your leg along with the healing and bleeding of child birth is sooooo degrading. There is nothing more sexy than your husband having to help you carry your pee bag around and drain it for you. This was a struggle. Brian came home after Adalines birth, and I had lost all the baby weight and was in better shape than when we got married. And this time he was there to see it all. All the ugly nasty things that come with childbirth. And I was not having it. I didn't want help, I didn't want him to see me at all. I wanted to be up and moving the next day. But this was not going to happen. I wasn't going to be able to do things without him. I needed him, and that was a hard pill to swallow. Because if you know me on a personal level, you know that I don't need anyone. Or I don't like to need anyone. Even living in my parents back house so we can save and pay off debt and get ahead is a low blow to my pride. Not being able to pick up Adaline, or go to her therapies broke a piece of my heart. It took 7 catheters, a week of no bladder control, lots of humility, and two pee tests to get that dang thing removed. I even had to learn how to self catheterize my self. HUMILIATING. Everyone was asking me about my peeing habits. Ill probably need some sort of bladder therapy because the nerves are still very much damaged. I don't know I have to pee until my bladder is super full. And if I ever need Anesthesia again my bladder probably won't ever wake up. So no more kids for me, because I'm not superwoman who can do it without an epidural. 

As for my PPD I had after Adaline, during this last pregnancy I am happy to report that I have never felt more control over my emotions than I do now. I suffered from so much anxiety and worry after Adaline. Panic attacks over the smallest things. Nightmares of falling down the stairs holding her and slipping and landing on her. Car rides were the worst. When any man other than Brian would hold her, I just had to hold my breath and bit my tongue. I believed she wasn't safe until she was in my arms. Never went out without her really, solely because I don't desire time away from my children, but also because I would just worry about her the whole time. I still don't think I will ever leave my kids with anyone just to go out and have fun. I don't desire time away from them. I want to be part of their every day.

I was on antidepressants in the beginning of my pregnancy with parental depression, so the doctors were worried thinking I would have PPD again, but I can honestly say that I don't feel anything but excitement and sometimes overwhelmed for this new chapter of my life. Dont get me wrong, There are times when I'm like about to hit my limit, like when Adaline pooped all though her clothes and we were in a restaurant and I didn't have a change of clothes for her, or when both babies are screaming in the car, but thats nothing some ice cream and a hot shower can't fix ;) I remembering feeling like the Post Partum hormones were way worse than pregnancy hormones and I was so worried how I would handle a new born and Adalines demanding schedule. And the nursing, my goodness. So different this time around. It took me so long to get Adaline to nurse. Then I had a "Milk Crisis" where i lost all my milk for a week. And this time around I have so much milk that Claramae can't even eat it all. I have to pump after each feeding. So I'm giving Adaline some in a sippy cup every once in a while. 

I don't want to try to sell you Anything, but I can honestly attribute all of these differences to Plexus. I started diligently taking Plexus once I was on anti depressants in the beginning of this pregnancy and wanted to get off the meds. And my depression seriously went away. I stopped loosing so much weight and started achieving healthy pregnancy weight gain, and my milk supply is insane. Plus it helps so much with your gut health and really everything else. Plexus is a plant based supplement so its not chemicals or anything. If you're interested please email me and Ill get you some information. Here are some pictures of my postpartum journey.  The first picture is my last bump picture... sadly i don't have a cuter one where I look happy. haha. I was 38 weeks here. The next picture is the morning after delivery... The following picture is 6 days after delivery. And the last picture is 2 weeks PostPartum. Im no where near my goal, but I know that I can get there. I truly believe in these products and what they have done for my health and even Adalines. Ill post some pictures below of the products I take daily.  

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